home sweet home.

It's been forever since I've written in this blog.. And I should definitely write more like Nancy told me to.. I'm finally back in Fullerton for Winter Break! Winter break started on Thursday after 11 a.m. for me but I had to stay until Sunday to go to Mammoth Mountains with KASA.

Mammoth was an overall OK trip. First of all, once we got to Mammoth, the charter bus's snow tires broke so we had to walk the rest of the way with all our stuff.. The walk ended up being a 10 minute slightly upward slope. Good thing the girls only had to take 2 trips but the boys were told to do like 5 trips. It was fucking cold the first night although the heaters and fireplace were on. We drank the first night. Drank the second night.
- The baptong wasn't even that bad! Most people made it seem like super disgusting but it was pretty good. The baptong is this thing where the first-timers are forced to drink out of this huge pot / dish thing filled with all types of drinks. I didn't see what went into it, but seeing from the pictures, there was some soju, smirnoff, capt mo, JD, beer, orange drink, grape drink, etc. And tons of it went into it too! The girls went first and mostly all girls took a small sip, but I took more than that [: and then went a second and third round. TANK!
- On Tuesday (the last full day at Mammoth), the girls played sure-aids in teams and loser had to sing a Christmas carol dressed up in front of everyone. Sadly, our team lost and it was very embarrassing. But the next round, we decided to do a guys vs. girls sure-aids and the punishment was anything. The girls won so we decided that all the boys involved in the game had to get make up and moles on and take pictures. [: Pretty fun.
- Unfortunately, the ride back was a bust. We left at 10 a.m. from Mammoth and around 2:30 ~ 3 ish, we stopped at a McDonalds to eat. The bus driver told us that the highways were closed due to the storms and the snow. We ended up being stuck at Mojave Desert until 10 a.m. the next morning. And then it took us until 6p.m. to get the Santa Barbara. -.- shit.

I finally got to Fullerton at around 10 p.m. Thursday night and went out with Derek. [: We got boba, looked at Christmas lights, walked around Fullerton Downtown, and finally ate Molca Salsa! On friday, we went out and played Time Crisis at Puente Hills Mall (where some random girl came up to us while we were playing and gave us a post-it that said that we were a cute couple ^.^V) and then went to eat at a Chinese Restaurant, and we were about to go to Santa Monica Pier but it was kind of late so we just went to Life Plaza then went to Derek's House..

Sadly, derek went to Antarctica today ]: So I won't be seeing him like the whole break!.

Saturday.. I didn't do anything. Besides download some stuff [: Family Guy episodes and Friends episodes for my iPod. Any other good shows I should download?? And maybe I should download some movies but I am way too picky on that. Especially since I don't want to fill up my computer with that stuff. I was thinking about getting an External Hardware to put on my music and pictures. And I need a new camera because mine is fucked up to the max!. And I want a Blackberry T.T I wish i still believed in Santa.

Home is great.. so far.. [: and pretty cold. Odd because I was in Negative weather at Mammoth but yeah. =/

college

Man, where do I start? College.. Is so much fun. Wait, no, UCSB is so much fun. I am so glad I decided to choose this school over all those others. I have never regretted my decision since I've been here.

Well first of all, I'm sick. Recovering but sick. I think all the drinking the whole first week got my immune system all weak. And then I hung out with a group of people who were sick. ]: And then now my roommate is sick and my suitemate was already sick. Now we gota get the other one sick :D

The weather here is fucking great. Well not the past few days, it's been around 80s-90s and it's the beach. Feels like L.A. ]:

My room is pretty cool too. Although it's a mile away from campus, it's twice the size of all the other rooms and it has 1 bathroom between 4 people. I bike to campus and that's not bad [:

Parties are always fun :D I'm in KASA! I just found that out.. And I'm thinking of becoming a lil sis for a frat, probably Lambdas but I'm considering Zetas. And I wana check out the Pineapples. :D

I went home last weekend so I probably won't go home for a while, plus I totally missed SB when I went home ]: Sad isn't it? HAHA

shwayze / tyga

:D I went to Shwayze / Tyga concert tonight. It was so much fun, we were like 10 feet away from them. :) Since this was probably one of my first concerts, I really liked it. (My first was NSYNC when I was a kid) The people are really bitchy and the air was filled with weed ): Ewww and a guy almost dropped a lit blunt on my shoe. ): Everyone pushed and shoved and you couldn't even have fun for a full non-stop 5 minutes. Besides that, GREAT! I got to touch Shwayze's arm.. HAHA It was pretty fun. :)


Yah, great day, but got ruined by something just now. >;(



3 days in Socal before I go up! My friend Jason actually has everything planned out. He lives there, and he got time off of work to help me move in and stuff.. He's going to get us free Starbucks, help me move, and then after my parents leave, I have to make him dinner and he takes me to a party. (We had a deal.) That means I have to cook in his nasty alcohol'd kitchen. LOL But that's all cool. :) I'm pretty excited, and I should get to packing cuz all I have packed is my pillow and sheets.


My pictures, not really alot (not at all) , and I shouldv'e taken some of Tyga, he took his shirt off. (:

bracelets2

Made both today :)

I made this for my friend Daniel.. I actually really really like it and it probably has like the least mistakes =x Not that anyone else can tell :P






This was originally for my friend / unni Shinah, but i kinda screwed up in the order so I don't want to give this to her :( I'll keep it and I'm actually in the middle of making her new one.. Although the colors make it look solid :( HAHA So much effort on one girlie :/ It's all good..

friendship bracelets

So I started making friendship bracelets.





The purple one was my first, and I accidentally made it way too big. :\ But it's still cute.







This is my second one. [: It's cute isn't it? 4 hearts for the 4 letters of my name :D

This isn't a very good picture, the color is way off. It looks better in real life but I made this for my friend. Or well, I started to, and I kinda love it, and we'll see if she gets it.

addictions

I've found a new obsession with friendship bracelets. I started yesterday and I'm almost done with my second. I'll post up pictures. :) But it's an addiction, no kidding.

Today, I went to the beach around 8pm. We brought out blankets and pillows to lay down and it was pretty. You can see the moon shining on the ocean and the stars. I think most of the time I was looking up into the stars. After that, I got tired, closed my eyes, and for some wierd reason, I subconciously imagined eating Korean Ramen. It was hott of the stove and it was my first bite. I dug my chopsticks in, pulled it up to my mouth, and then they became friendship bracelet knots. :< I told you I'm addicted. After that, we were driving back towards Fullerton and passed by GGPC (PC Room for those who don't know) and decided to go play Warcraft. :) Another one of my (kinda) new addictions. We played one game, and then went on the Dota. Gosh playing Footmen made me want to play more. It's so much fun and I need to get super PRO status and one day beat all my guy friends. Then we played this one game called "Sex Tag" (if I remember correctly) where you try to run around and not get raped by the computer ghosts. I think I screamed so loud from excitement that the whole PC room heard me clearly. :\ After that exciting game, we went to Molca Salsa and ate. :) What a nice day.

I need to buy myself Warcraft.
And I can't wait for the Twilight movie. :)


And then the last week went by so quickly. I just realized I have way under 3 weeks until college. :/ I need to get my stuff done. :(


OH! And I am (or might) go to Shwayze & Tyga concert and a N.e.r.d & Common concert, I'm excited!

im a 7

Take this personality test, answer the questions truthfully, tell me what you get. It's cool.

http://www.9types.com/rheti/homepage.actual.html



I'm :
Type 1 : 3
Type 2 : 5
Type 3 : 4
Type 4 : 1
Type 5 : 3
Type 6 : 3
Type 7 : 7
Type 8 : 6
Type 9 : 3


:) Have a nice day.

conflicting beliefs

Although I'm in a pretty sucky mood right now, I just realized something that made me bounce from a shitty mood to a sucky mood. I realize that after all my promising and actually showing that I wouldn't be the first to let go, it actually paid off. I mean, after all my effort in sticking by, even through all the bullshit and lies, I feel good. I took the bullshit and I was still standing tall but they couldn't even take it once. I mean, they always said they hated me and wanted to stop talking to me, then told me to stop talking to them, and even a few things actually stopped. Maybe this is just one of those few times, and I'm just feeling shitty for no reason, but every time does seem real while your experiencing it. These times make me glad I'm optimistic, unlike them who probably feels even worse at the moment because they are pessimistic as ever. They also think they are doing me a huge favor when they're nice. It's like I never asked for it, so stop acting like I should be thanking you. And then they think that they give all the effort in the world when it comes to me when that is just.. lies. They say I don't give effort in them but I mean, what would they know? They always state theories and assumptions so I should just brush it aside. But it bothers me knowing that they could never, in a million years, give me the same effort as I gave them. Money doesn't buy me sweetheart.



And then the reasoning or what started all this was a test? I mean, honestly, tests are so immature. Maybe I'm saying that because I'm bitter about it or something. But really, atleast make the test something worth it, something legit, something you can get true facts out of, not some stupid bullshit. That test was almost as useless as telling a fat guy to jump on the ground and then calling that the cause of the earthquake.



I think this is the first real time that I actually didn't really stand up for myself. Well, not necessarily first time, but first person that I didn't stand up to. I know I could, and take them on in a second, but it's just hopeless. Anything I say goes in one ear and comes out the other. What I say doesn't matter or count. So what's the point in saying anything right? There's no point in telling what you think if they're not going to listen. It's like talking to a wall, and then expecting it to understand you. I guess I learned from this person to be less blunt.

Hopefully things turn around. I know what's best is to leave it be, just like what alot of people say. It's best to stay away from them. But then again, I can't just sit here and watch it fade away in front of me. I mean, if things can somehow go back to the way things were. So I guess either way I would be pretty content. Both ways give me a disadvantage. One : I would be giving in to the fact that I let a good friend go. Two : I would have to put my pride, my beliefs, my morals, and everything else aside.

I guess we were really too different. I mean, I lived on knowing that we were, and that I couldn't change how things were, and I was happy, but I guess they still have to learn that people are different, and you should take them for who they are.

OK now I know I'm tired, I keep forgetting what I was about to type. :




Besides this, life was actually going on great.

happy birthday

I realized that I should stop feeding drinks to my DD. My cousin's ex-boyfriend recently got killed by a drunk driver. That makes me really think that maybe someone I know is next. And me being me, I have never had anyone I personally knew die. So that would be a whole new experience for me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIFFANY AND BUDD

Hm. I only have a month left before leaving for school. I know that sounds like alot of time to see my friends, but a month will go by so quick it'll feel like a week. So I should start calling people up now and arranging some fun. I hope I get a chance to hang out with everyone I need to before I leave. I actually started a list. I hope I don't forget anyone. =/

I hate assumptions.

I have nothing else to talk about, or I'm too tired to think.. Goodnight.

that thing called love.

i'm in love.

dont forget my other hubby [:

reality vs. fantasy

Reality: Those who care don't matter and those who matter don't care.
I guess that's true. That person who cared doesn't matter, life will go on. I don't know what they care about, or why for that matter, but they cared. And for a few weeks now, I've been living life knowing that they didn't matter. What I don't get is how the one that matters actually does care. Does that mean that this person shouldn't matter? Maybe I'm just being stubborn and not listening to the advices of those people who tell me to ditch it. Maybe it doesn't matter. It just makes me feel worse at the end of the day anyway. But I made a promise. A promise is a promise. And plus, only about 35 more days. I can live.

OH! I finished my book. It was good.

Fantasy: I want to go on vacation. A friend and I were talking about New York, and I would choose NY for my fantasy vacation, but I wouldn't want to go now, it's way too humid. I love New York during the winter, it's just the best place to be. So instead of NY, I'd go to... Somewhere tropical... I'd take my mom.. And my sister.. Or.. my sister when she's not with her boyfriend.. Cuz if she is, that's all she'll talk to (over the phone).. And ofcourse my daddy. :) Sounds nice, I want to go swimming.

Talking about my dad, he's forcing me to wake up at 9~10ish every morning.. Just because I wake up past 1 every day ): So bed time for me.

Night.

handicapped.

So, after a bad fall at Sean's first party, I am indeed handicapped. I limp everywhere. I'm on lockdown for the moment. And yesterday, when I went to Wal-Mart with my sister and a friend, I used the handicapped automatic wheelchair thing. That was pretty funny though, despite the 1 mph part of it. And a pretty nice break for my ankle. It's been almost a week and a half, and I finally went to get treatment for it today; Acupuncture. It wasn't as bad as my first time, and atleast they put it all over my leg instead of my face like last time.

Bottom line : I do not have any intersting stories of my week because I've been in almost the whole time.

Do they have smileys on this thing? It would be nice.

Ugh I just tried over my laptop cable and I think my ankle just got bad again.. HA so much for acupuncture.

I'm surprisingly super excited for college. SB here I come! 38 days? :D

mellow.

this party on saturday night was bomb.. there wasn't any hookah (or my ass there was) but besides that i participated in the lap dance competition, which turned out horribly considering my messed up ankle and the fact that i had no idea where my friken camera went half the night. (thank god i found it sooner or later)

joe da bro leaves on monday, i am truely goign to miss him, unlike those otheres who went to the party and say that they will miss him (bullshit). they probably went for the liquor or the party, and i got to admit what one of my best friends said "half of them look too young." i'm sorry, half of them were ugly as hell, but besides that i had fun.. this girl right here, tanya manibusan, my hero, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_mnNobyipS8, shiet she's an underground inspiration.. i love her.. (i don't give a fuck if she's lesbian or not)..

i missed all the people i saw today, and i'll miss my diamond bar friends forever, but honeslty that's not my issue.. i think i have to look out for everyone, which in this case, i really do.. this is pretty pathetic that they can't take care of themselves, but fuck that.. i'll be here, but the thing is that they have never treated me with the same respect and dignity that they have treated me but i'm still better. honestly, this weekend was just a bust, hopefully next weekend will be so much better.

p.s. im afraid to tell my mom about my messed up ankle because i'm afraid she'll smell me ]:
but if it does happen that my ankle is really MESSed up, then someone has to go to sixflags with me..

p.p.s. i forgot. ADD shiet sorry..

replacement.

i am.

Summer List

Summer is half gone but I need a summer list before it's actually over.

x -party
-go to a really BANGing party (including everything i like in a party)
x -beach
-(including some water activities)
-bonfire
-speedzone
-some kind of trip
-roscoes
-coffee shop
-movie day
-six flags (before my ankle gets better so we can have handicap passes?)
-knotts (same as six flags)
-hang out with jason kim and chris lee (since they asked me and i didn't go)
-make something
x -finish college required stuff ): like fafsa
-hang out with everyone i'll miss when i leave (sept 20)
-a decent family trip would be nice (since the last family trip was when i went to orientation and my family went w.o me)
-see the sunset
-see the sunrise
-take tons of pictures (they last longer)
-go on a great adventure (like indiana jones status, not like getting lost)
-santa monica pier
-concert

I'll add more when I think of it :)

first post.

So, just like Xanga, Myspace, and Facebook, I decided to get my own Blogger? (I don't know if it's called Blogger or Blogspot or whatever) I hope I can keep it up unlike my xanga. Reading back on blogs make me happy, you get to read what you were like, how you talked, and mainly, how naive and stupid you were back then, it's pretty hilarious, really.

Basically, my Blog can be whatever i want. I'm pretty random so let's see how many stories I can tell. :) Oh! and referring to before, I think Chris "BIGHEAD" Lee's Blog made me want to start blogging -.-Thanks Chris.

Okay, another reason for making this blog was because the other night, I was super stressed and just wished that I could have something to write to. Paper and pen is just way too old fashion, and plus, now that school is over, writing more than a sentence makes my fingers cramp and hurt. So blog came into my mind, since I'm always reading Chris's. Not thoroughly, but skimming. HA [:

One thing I came to realize that other day was that I feel empty. I know I can be pretty darn optimistic, but the reality of it hit me. I have no reason to live. Not that I'm thinking about suicide and other stuff like that, but in the sense that I have nothing to live for. I mean, I have friends, I go out a good ammount, I've been places and I'm happy with my life, don't get me wrong, but I have no real hobbies, no real interests, no real goal (or drive), and no one really that special to focus on. I really need to find something, but it doesn't come that easy. I know people who are into stuff like cars and making stuff or helping others, and although I wish that could just happen to me, it doesn't come that easy. My only true interest is probably going to parties -.- HA which I really don't think it's that interesting anymore, just fun at the moment. Hopefully SB opens up a new door to me. Watch everyone, I'll come back to So Cal loving outdoor activities (since SB is all about the outdoors).

So, I got this new book last night, the 4th book to the Twilight Series, Breaking Dawn. I just started, and I can't wait until i finish it. :)

So I know I can be pretty lazy, and that I won't post until the weekend is over, so here goes with my plans. Nothing is going on tonight. ): BOO. But because stupid Avalon is having this huge club event and because I'm not yet 18, I'll have to skip out on all that fun. I'll be hanging out with some friends and go up to this haunted mental hospital? HAHA it'll be so much fun. I need to have a scary movie nightt. And I hope everyone going to Lovefest tomorrow will have fun. Hope to see you guys at Monster Massive, since i practically made my friend go, I have to go. And while everyone is at LF, I'll be in DB.

Before I go, one more thing I wanted to mention, my summer list, which maybe it'll be a better idea to have it's own post, just so I can edit without having to go through so much trouble.